Death and Being a Japanese Jew

The subject of death can be spiritually torturous enough, but try growing up within two different cultures with polar opposite views as I did with a Japanese mother and Jewish father! Let's just sum up my cultural confusion with the following quotes I heard continuously as a child. The first from a Japanese Emperor, "Generally speaking, the way of the warrior is the resolute acceptance of death." And the other from Woody Allen, "It's not that I'm afraid to die. I just don't want to be there when it happens." Excuse me now as I contemplate Hari Kari while simultaneously contemplating how I might use Gefilte Fish as a dangerous weapon.